I keep thinking I'm going to blog stuff and then I don't, but then this thing happened and it was too long for a Facebook post …
A tiny bit of backstory, since I haven't blogged since sometime in the spring …
It's been pretty stressful here in our house, what with an incredibly busy semester for me coupled with Brad suddenly becoming unemployed and plunging into a deep depression two days before the semester started, added to the fact that there's been quite a lot of mental illness flare up on my part. (One day this semester I realized that instead of using knitting to ground myself, I was stabbing the ball of yarn over and over again with the knitting needles …in class.)
Thursday I hit meltdown. I spent a lot of the day ugly-crying and by evening had worked myself into the worst asthma attack I've had in a very long time. Because my asthma symptoms are atypical, presenting with pain between the shoulder blades, if I can't get it under control with inhalers, I have to go to the ER to make sure I'm not having a heart attack, as pain between the shoulder blades is a common symptom of heart attack in women.
So that's the backstory to this lovely story, which is indeed lovely. I went in and over the several hours that I was there, they ruled out heart attack and blood clot and chest infection but were not pleased with the fact that my blood pressure was rising and did not seem to be lowering at all. At some point, several hours into the process, I realized that Brad was actually allowed to be hanging out in the back with me, so I went and fetched him from the waiting room and we held hands for at least an hour and when they came to take to my blood pressure again - seriously. this is so lovely -
It was close to normal.
